*sighhh*

Written in July of 2008 by me, didnt know how else to express myself during a dark time in my life. && the crazy part is these feelings never really faded. (I apologize for the length)
she's hurt and confused, beaten and abused.emotionally, mentally. never physically.unless you count sexually'cause shes been touched in a few places by a few faces.nothing serious to most but in her world it was everything.it left scars that would never heal a pain she would always feel.many guys tried to ease her pain but she rathered to stay out in the rain.drown in her sorrows with hopes for tomorrowwishing on stars that didn't care.then he came along. she fell so hard and so fast we all knew it wouldn't lasthe was perfect in a sense that's why their love never made sense.it was so right and so wrong.yet he was her dream come true all along.and she knew she could never taste his kissbut his love was something she couldn't resist.so she fell for his lies and a dream of what could be.she fell so deep she could no longer seereality.their feelings started to agebut her love for him would never changenow speaking for him is something i cant doall i know is he kept her from feeling blueshe still cried but overall he kept her happy inside.not saying she didn't hurt but he had her at her best and her worsthe was her firstreal love.he kept her out of a hearse.'cause sometimes i think she would of tried to take her lifeshe looked at the knife was gonna slit her wrist or maybe her throathang herself with a rope.but she didn't because of him and the way he made her feelwhat they had was real or she could of been chasing a fallacy.visions of a love that wasn't real.but still, she stayed.her heart wouldn't let her leave him.she tried but he always pulled her backher heart no longer in tactbut it was a fact that he was the love of her lifehe promised to make her his wife and she believed himjust like she believed his other liesbecause she couldn't look in his eyesif she could she would know because real eyes recognize real liesshe tried to move on and date other guysbut no one compared to him in her eyes.and it didn't seem like he felt the same way'cause he would flaunt other girls in her face.and it would hurt my heart as i watched her try to hide the tearsthis was her biggest fear watching the one she loved ,love someone else.all i could tell her was move on and let goshe really wanted to, i could see it in her face but it was already too late.he took her heart and ran with itand she had no choice no longer had a voiceall she could say was i love youits the only thing in the world that she knew was true.'cause she was hurt and confused, beaten and abused.emotionally and mentally.she was bruised on her heart because she believes in a love that was doomed from the start this is the story of a girl who had fallen so deep she would never climb back to reality.